Friday, September 18, 2009

Should have seen this coming

Major stress as of late. Working late, bringing work home, spending nearly every waking moment working, stressing, cussing under my breath. And I've been cramping the whole time -- the period stopped, but the pain didn't.

Shoulda known I'd start early.

A week and two days, to be exact. Well, if I were to start on time...which I never do. Pretty much the only thing that ever makes me start early is stress. Usually, I'm late. Which makes sense, considering my "normal" cycle averaged 34 days. (Quotes intended...my periods were never normal, or regular. But they were also nowhere near the mythical 28-day cycle.) I'm just not a short-cycle girl.

So when I do start early, it's bad.

I've lost 5 lbs in 2 weeks. Sleeping badly; waking up exhausted. I know what this is: my body's way of telling me to slow the hell down. Wish I could.

I've really tried to cope with the stress. To not fall back on the vices I've used to "cope" in the past...smoking too much, drinking too much, eating garbage. But I can't zen myself out of it lately. Working out does help, somewhat; at least when I'm done, I'm too tired to be really angry about anything anymore.

Or so I thought. My uterus thinks otherwise. Apparently denial only takes you so far.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Not-so-painful pants

Don't get me wrong -- there's been pain. But compared to what I've been dealing with, not that much. Three days into month two (for once, I started kinda-sorta on time), so I'm guessing I've had all the major pain I'm going to with this period.

Pain: Nearly constant Ponstel/Lyrica on days one and two. (And heating pad, of course.) Today, a Ponstel, no heating pad. (Also no Lyrica, though I wanted to take one for the mellowing effects. Bad, bad day at work.)

Flow: Oddly light. (And chunky. Ew.)

Other symptoms: Bloating, fair to medium. (Fair being the water retention portion, medium the preggo-belly swelling.) Bad zits last week, nothing this week. (Probly tempting fate here.) Moodiness...well, work angst notwithstanding, I've not been that bad.

Overall, this has not been a bad month. I wonder if that means next month will be okay as well, or if all hell will break loose.