Friday, February 6, 2009

I just don't know

Started spotting today. A little over a week out from the scheduled date. The spotting wasn't completely unexpected...my complexion's gone to hell, my back's been killing me, I'm waterlogged despite eating a low-sodium diet, and I've been extremely moody and insecure today. (By which I mean wondering, with no provocation whatsoever, if my boyfriend is cheating on me, and planning what I'd say to him if he were. Getting mad about things people did to me years ago. That kind of thing. So...I've gone temporarily insane, basically.)

The symptoms are familiar. But why are they here so soon? Okay, so I'm stressed. I'm always stressed. Stress didn't do this to me when I was younger. And lord knows that after the past couple of months, there shouldn't be any excess left in there.

I wish I had a clue what triggers this. Then maybe I could do something about it.

4 comments:

Unknown said...

Nicole - Are you doing a food journal? There still may be something in your diet triggering this, or dietary lack.

I am trying to get soy in daily now because after last month I want to try & get myself under control. Misery & depression are not my idea of fun...

Nicole said...

That's a good idea. I'll have to try that. Thing is, I ate soy for dinner almost every night last week (vegetarian taco mix). Maybe I should avoid it!

Unknown said...

Well try the food journal - who knows if anything helps or doesn't. Ya weird veg head :D

Soy is supposed to help with estrogen - mebbe you got too much? If you saw my stache & hear my voice you'd know I am not super estrogen woman :D

Nicole said...

That's a good idea! Though I've failed to stick with food journals in the past (even just this week...I kept one for about six hours Monday). So perhaps I should make it a 43t goal, though -- the little extra push my help me stick with it.